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Clarity
08:42
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I once knelt down believing
No questions asked, stability
Now I can't see anything
Logic has crawled its way inside me
Open up
Look Beyond
See the truth
Turn a blind eye
Something you will never doubt
Something I will never have
Falling further into darkness
I never knew
Flickering candlelight
Thinking maybe they're right
Smothered by such confusion
Wishing for some clarity
Open up
Look Beyond
See the truth
Turn a blind eye
Something you will never doubt
Something I will never have
Falling further into darkness
I never knew
Slowly aging, rearranging, never changing, morbid views
Feeling something, then it's nothing, someone show me, a real truth
Woke up this morning
There on the screen
Bullets flying
Hell on the streets
How can this be just?
Such cruelty
Bodies in the dust
Can't take this piety
No one saves
Those who preach
With the blade
Or deceit
Something you will never doubt
Something I will never have
Falling further into darkness
I never knew
Slowly aging, rearranging, never changing, morbid views
Feeling something, then it's nothing, someone show me, a real truth
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Plaguing You
05:29
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Darkness falls on your life again
And you pull the curtains shut
Hoping that someday the light will come
Another shot to the foot
From the pit of your despair and pain
Your hands they desperately search
Yet still the hole fills with the pouring rain
Pale white fingers clamber at the dirt
Slipping under and yet again
Rescued by one you call your friend
As soon as you are on your feet
The 'friend' is subject to your deceit
Never learn and you never will
Exploiting everyone until
They cannot take any more of this
And back you fall into your abyss
(I don't know what you want from me
I don't know what you want me to be
I don't know what is plaguing you
I don't know what you want me to do)
Everyone falls from time to time
And everyone can need help
It seems as though you cannot see the line
No one matters no one except yourself
Slipping under and yet again
Rescued by one you call your friend
As soon as you are on your feet
The 'friend' is subject to your deceit
Never learn and you never will
Exploiting everyone until
They cannot take any more of this
And back you fall into your abyss
(I don't know what you want from me
I don't know what you want me to be
I don't know what is plaguing you
I don't know what you want me to do)
Slipping under and yet again
Rescued by one you call your friend
As soon as you are on your feet
The 'friend' is subject to your deceit
Never learn and you never will
Exploiting everyone until
They cannot take any more of this
And back you fall into your abyss
(I don't know what you want from me
I don't know what you want me to be
I don't know what is plaguing you
I don't know what you want me to do)
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3. |
Complacent
06:45
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Try so hard but to no avail
It seems my acts are just in vain
Every time I bend over backwards
You kick me off my feet
Passive like a timid slave
I persevere 'til I nearly cave
But every time I willingly return
And all I want is to be loved by you
And everything I do is ignored by you
No one but you can take away the things that I love
It's a power you possess that I just can't bear thinking of, it's too hard
I let you into my head now I can't get you out
Every minute of each day and night my head is filled with doubt, such doubt
Isolated, I have no one else
Paralysed by my dependence
But still I try with all my might but why?
Wishing that I could break away
But my obsession forces me to stay
So complacent as you exploit all I am
And all I want is to be loved by you
And everything I do is ignored by you
No one but you can take away the things that I love
It's a power you possess that I just can't bear thinking of, it's too hard
I let you into my head now I can't get you out
Every minute of each day and night my head is filled with doubt, such doubt
Taking all that you can from me
Causing damage that only I can see
Simplistic mundane gestures that cripple me
You keep on magnifying my insecurity
And all I want is to be loved by you
And everything I do is ignored by you
No one but you can take away the things that I love
It's a power you possess that I just can't bear thinking of, it's too hard
I let you into my head now I can't get you out
Every minute of each day and night my head is filled with doubt, such doubt
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4. |
To Face Another Day
07:46
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Once again I find I'm in too deep
Once again I find I'm losing sleep
Once again the time seems to fly by
Once again I'm lost in those eyes
I've been around here for far too long
But I still love you even though it's wrong
I've been and I've learned and I've gone astray
But I'm still here to face another day
Once again confusion's tainting me
Once again she's the only thing I see
Once again the pressure, it seems to build
Once again I need her as a friend
I've been around here for far too long
But I still love you even though it's wrong
I've been and I've learned and I've gone astray
But I'm still here to face another day
I've been around here for far too long
But I still love you even though it's wrong
I've been and I've learned and I've gone astray
But I'm still here to face another day
And so I find I'm here again
Another close call to losing a friend
And so I find it's for the best
Sacrifice giving up more for less
To face another day
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5. |
Labyrinth
07:42
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Come into this place and you'll never see the light again
Taken, my life's worth
Rituals of sadistic revenge
Twisted, a product of lust
Subsequently, punishment unjust
Anger, none can stand a chance
All just victims of my circumstance
Trapped in captivity
No answers lie in these walls
Trapped by those who made me
He will stay until he falls
Blood of men around me
No glint of sword and shield
No displays of mercy
For none were shown to me
Fight, one that cannot be one (can't be won)
Walls, they have nowhere to run (nowhere)
So unfeeling, falling one by one (to run)
She, she created me (she made me)
He, created what you see (what you see)
Chances taken, unending deceit
No one has escaped
This victory is mine to take
Inside all these walls
Hateful being
Over death he crawls
His head will be my prize
I will end this sacrifice
The slowly greying skies
One last look as the light dies
Smell of death and disdain
Of hopelessness and pain
Things will not be the same
Everything will change
Fight, one that cannot be one (can't be won)
Walls, they have nowhere to run (nowhere)
So unfeeling, falling one by one (to run)
She, she created me (she made me)
He, created what you see (what you see)
Chances taken, unending deceit
Why must she have betrayed?
Look what she has made
Walls around start to fade
Freedom from the blade
Fight, one that cannot be one (can't be won)
Walls, they have nowhere to run (nowhere)
So unfeeling, as it comes undone (to run)
She, if only she could see (she should see)
Now, what's become of me (become of me)
Fallen rival, lying next to me (dies with me)
No survival, mutual defeat (death sets me free)
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6. |
Aesthetics
07:11
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Such hypocrisy
Such twisted beauty
Burning desire only to judge
Fake smile of reassurance
I have never felt so alone as now
But I'm not on my own by any stretch
And so
This feeling starts to grow
I want, I hesitate
The staring, hatred tearing through the air
I feel like I can't stay because truth it has worn out
Can't see the light of day for all the insults and doubt
Isolated, I am warped just like wood in choking heat
Rarely changes, no matter who you meet
Sophisticated
Domesticated
Generalise, something of a frequency
The crevasse is deeper than you'll ever see
Time changes so many things I see
But this plague it infests perpetually
And so
Do you want to know
My flaws? My past mistakes?
My deepest deepest insecurites?
I feel like I can't stay because truth it has worn out
Can't see the light of day for all the insults and doubt
Isolated, I am warped just like wood in choking heat
Rarely changes, no matter who you meet
Some things are truly beautiful to me
Aesthetics or morbid irony
And so
This feeling will not let go
Still want, still hesitating
Don't know just what you're creating
I'm breaking you keep taking it all
Too late now I fall into myself
I feel like I can't stay because truth it has worn out
Can't see the light of day for all the insults and doubt
Isolated, I am warped just like wood in choking heat
Rarely changes, no matter who you meet
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7. |
Immoral, Immortal
06:41
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A final writ; emotion from beyond the grave
A double life; one that I never saw
This confuses the life that I've led
Well I feel useless now
As you sit here inside my head
How could I trust you, believe you and call you a friend? I was there
But now it means nothing as your life has come to an end
All your secrets and...
Lies; that you weave
Cries; let me grieve
Why am I falling? The reaper comes calling
Without you for answers it feels like I'm crawling and
Absorbing life; never thinking of the ones you'd leave behind
The hurt, the pain; of a world you never saw
Amusing games that you played in your mind
Well you lost cheaply now
As the rest of us journey on
You played the victim to justify self sacrifice, why bother?
Now you're six feet under and I pay the ultimate price
For your secrets and...
Lies; that you weave
Cries; let me grieve
Why am I falling? The reaper comes calling
Without you for answers it feels like I'm crawling and
I drown my sorrows by flickering candlelight, hating
That you've crossed the river and bid me a friendly goodnight
With your secrets and...
Lies; that you weave
Cries; let me grieve
Why am I falling? The reaper comes calling
Without you for answers it feels like I'm crawling and
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8. |
My Friend in The Mirror
07:32
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All my thoughts drifting apart
A new sensation is clouding me
Another presence, a mental intrusion
Another mask takes what I see
Myself looking back at me
Delerium covers me
He's hearing voices in his head
Words from people lost instead
Lies made of whispers 'I'm here for you'
What can be done for him, what can we do?
Sense of control so foreign and new
I'm running in circles without a clue
Losing myself in this turbulent hell
My friend in the mirror, me myself
(Someone else inside my mind
Makes my choices from time to time
I speak back to myself
Struggle in my head
I'm my friend in the mirror myself)
Memories and sentimentals all fading
The threat of losing control slowly growing
Meditation and reflection results in someone else
Running uphill, a losing battle, it doesn't make any sense
He's hearing voices in his head
Words from people lost instead
Lies made of whispers 'I'm here for you'
What can be done for him, what can we do?
Sense of control so foreign and new
I'm running in circles without a clue
Losing myself in this turbulent hell
My friend in the mirror, me myself
(Someone else inside my mind
Makes my choices from time to time
I speak back to myself
Struggle in my head
I'm my friend in the mirror myself)
Reflected being
Another excludes me from all my thoughts
The broken dreams
Awaken with new memories
A cold sweat
I'm not alone I'm no longer free
And now I'm sure
That there's something else growing deep inside of me
He's hearing voices in his head
Words from people lost instead
Lies made of whispers 'I'm here for you'
What can be done for him, what can we do?
Sense of control so foreign and new
I'm running in circles without a clue
Losing myself in this turbulent hell
My friend in the mirror, me myself
(Someone else inside my mind
Makes my choices from time to time
I speak back to myself
Struggle in my head
I'm my friend in the mirror myself)
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9. |
Solace
02:22
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n/a
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10. |
Contradiction in Terms
08:04
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Tireless efforts to escape
Beautiful sight, what is this place?
Thoughts of violence my unease growing
Hatred, disdain, breaking, destroying
Sight and voice are futile and useless
This can't happen, just can't get through this
I wanted that place
Nothing more
Found, a new way out, but a new doubt
Is clawing its way through me
Blind, by my own mind, I cannot fight
I know now I should not be here
Once my haven of infrequent peace
Pain and confusion, they still increase
The more I found about this place
The less I understand about it
At first it was somewhere I hid from all I had to face
And now I just want out of it
Breaking at the seams
There's no respite
Found, a new way out, but a new doubt
Is clawing its way through me
Blind, by my own mind, I cannot fight
I know I should not be here
Psychological, illogical, how is my mind breaking?
Same, more of the same, drives me insane, and I can't get out
Please end this now
Someone stop this from controlling me
Breaking at the seams
There's no respite
Found, a new way out, but a new doubt
Is clawing its way through me
Blind, by my own mind, I cannot fight
I know I should not be here
Psychological, illogical, how is my mind breaking?
Same, more of the same, drives me insane, and I can't get out
Where am I now?
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